I really want to miss you, like to see you and hear you, touch you. I know you will never belong to me, I should not do it, but for nearly 20 years, this Acacia pain, the pain of depression, not experienced people do not understand,UGG boots cheap, never felt, the tears are a natural , and sorrow have become a clock.
Dear: I have 5 days unable to eat, sleep, and only tea instead of food, a bed to do it.
Without your love I really do not know how to spend those long road without your love I do not know how long I can keep it. Now I do not have a full day's burst into tears, just a casual dry tears, maybe I'm still waiting, waiting for the last tear is for you to drain the love.
I am old, very emaciated, very tired, very helpless, very lost, very sad, very trance ... ....
I know that love has gone away, but I still fit you, I really want to put you down easy, not like you no longer love you. Miss you so bitter so bitter, like you are too tired too tired. You know that giving up is a beauty, but also all be, but I still very difficult to do, because I have tried many times, have to fail in retirement. I do not blame everything, blame blame my previous life scores paid off, blame can only blame myself under the bitter fruit wine should eat their own. I should not love you, love you is my greatest fault.
I know you do not need a spiritual soul can not touch you need is real, is the highest level you need to be enjoyed, you should get what you deserve everything, and I can understand.
I know you are very happy, very happy, I will silently wish for you, pray for you, because you love all people will love him, we must endure, tolerance, acceptance of all he has done is to love their own happiness. I only wish you all happiness, peace, health, good body take care, do not drink, do not stay up late, watch your diet, do not overload busy, so I worry it will reduce by half, the pain will reduce by half.
I do not know why I care so there is no reason one does not belong to me, I do not know why I can love you so hard nearly 20 years. Maybe you can tolerate a broad mind the emotions, perhaps you loving gaze I say nothing at all, perhaps the brows can make you locked my heart aches, your children may be naughty smile does not seem to worry a little sad, perhaps tired of you stubborn stubborn character who can not save them, perhaps your deep, silent, steady, generous, and do something crazy,UGG boots clearance, dedicated, serious, meticulous, and perhaps with you the kind of simple, easy, happy, feel free to find themselves again, and your touch I really do appreciate a woman can not resist never had the pleasure. In short, many, many so I can not give up, hard to forget.
every call, the information I quietly told myself this is the last time, maybe after my spirit, the body will be better, it will never miss you, love you, care you really hope this understanding, the end of all this suffering, but only last 3,5 days. Do you really like a tree deeply rooted in my heart of hearts, winds more than to sway, affects all of my heart. I really hope this is the last time to send you notes.
I understand everything, although every time I call, send the information are put on beaming faces relax, want you happy and healthy fear of a bad mood, you affect your mood, affect health. In fact, I have been doing for myself, in order to relieve and ease the pain of my thoughts and concerns of the storm, but also to give yourself a psychological comfort, I do not want to miss every day, worry, sorrow, tears moderate However, do not want to walk home and the hospital every day straight, I do not want to leave me love and loss of life, I've been in self-help, self protection, a variety of ways to try rescue their own, want to start from scratch can so far I did not do until, do not miss the pain minus half points, but will also increase. How many times I would like to transfer the situation, but the empty cup is full, could not hold no half drop.
fact, my body has been very weak, Chinese medicine is called kidney deficiency, blood deficiency, liver and gallbladder damp heat, spleen and stomach does not and, body tired fatigue, malaise, body pain and discomfort, the ancient emperor after the said Yin Yang Sheng poor conditioning. I studied Chinese medicine, they fear death, fear no one to take care of his son, hit, hurt, so I think I chose this humble self-help approach.
I want to say a lot a lot of you, but afraid of your emotions affect your body. Every time I hear you say not feeling worried I would hurt, could not eat, sleep worried about you worry about. Once heard you say I worry about to worry about high blood sugar headache all night, and morning found more than a dozen white hair root. You say you pancreas not, until now, every day I worry about how well your body can be nursed back to health.
nearly 20 years, I have been struggling in the whirlpool of pain. I know I should not fall in love with a loved one, and you loved one should not love. But already happened will not change, I try to keep it in the past, you can also make life difficult for the total. Tagore's poetry is so well written, to write my mind: , love each other but not together, deny the existence of the same rooted branches, the same rooted branches can not depend on the wind, the blinking stars they can not burn the track ... ..., the world's longest the distance is not life and death, but a fish and waterfowl in the water in the sky ... ... a total not to the past, the future does not always come, but difficult to forget to give up ... .... I have now surpassed my own, psychology, said, And you do to me, I put you as the God of my heart, my heart's sun. I can not say that, I also do not do, thousands of years,UGG shoes, I will not keep everything, do not want to regret. The only regret is that so many years my heart has been guilty, in the self-blame, the days we were together I did not appreciate that part of the good times, dared not genuine, bold, unbridled love you once, hurt you once. Is the moral pressure I can not breathe, so I left my deep regret to say here: I'm really sorry, dear, you are my love, my life, next life I will be destined to love you and cherish you and love you.
I am grateful to have a network, the network I can open up the opportunity to talk to your inner world of my love for you. With the regeneration of the network also have my chance. Yes, love is life, life is love, for love is one hundred percent loss of life and love. I do not know I was not one hundred percent love, but I know the love of what is a very tough battle. Now I have a very tough battle for you Suanbu Qing me how many reincarnation. I was hoping that all the women around you more than I love you, but I believe that no one will far more than I love you. Maybe as you say the same
There is a saying I can not say repressed for 20 years, when I feel you love the moment I wanted to tell you: Please, Do not, you will kill me, I'll and painful life. This happens to be the fate of trying to find fault with me, and I opened a big joke, I really can not afford such a joke, I lose, lose sight. Every day I ask the earth to Heaven Why should I be punished this way? Why would I encountered is that you? Buddha: It was my previous life debt owed! Buddha said: It is you repair to the edge of my previous life!
15 years ago when you left me you said you go, do not take this no good. My heart was in tears, my soul say to you: I'm afraid, afraid of losing you, afraid I could not bear the thought of the suffering. My heart still say to you: there will be only pain and there will only be tears. Emotionally I know myself, I was a feudal conservative woman, not a casual woman. Because self-esteem, self-love, moral drive I can only choose to endure the pain, I can not put my joy in other people's sufferings. I believe that there is only one true love, love is not shared. Love has always been selfish, no one wants to share with others their favorite. I found a lot of psychology teachers, they all shed tears for my story,cheap UGG boots, advised me to treat myself to go along with happiness, and you have a meeting to say the words say it may change the status quo, but I have not do, I'm afraid I will be more pain, more self-blame, I'm afraid will hurt the innocent, I'm afraid I can not help you see the way I cried, I'm afraid you know I love how you love will suffer will be sad I'm sorry. Originally, I was wrong, and I repeat the mistakes again, almost wrong to lose lives, but also bring you a lot of unhappiness. One philosopher said: Now I'm beyond the self, try to try in the end is right or wrong. I no longer want to cry, no pain, changed everything.
leave you the day I can only rely on stable, Bunao fluid, such as Chinese medicine to maintain sleep. Almost 20 years, every minute of my mind flashing your shadow, thinking back with you a variety of compensation is being affected by pain, but also resentment, in fact, is that you bring me more happiness and sweet. Let me know what you call Ganchangcunduan, understand why a night melancholy white head, understand what is the unforgettable love of life and death.
nearly 20 years I used to fantasize with you one day come to an uninhabited large deep forest, desert alone in gonna love you, hurt you once, even if only once, one day I will satisfied. I know it will never be realized fantasy, just a dream.
I always wanted a woman by your side as my heart wants to love you and cherish you and love you, worried about you. In my mind, a dream, you or your past, not now you, meet every dream you were five years ago, lovely. I do not want you to have great wealth and office, I only wish you the same as before, is an ordinary, healthy, happy, even if it is nothing, empty, I will love you more, there is no true love is not there will be trouble and pain, there can be no true love care and concern; worried about your physical body, or are worried about your body. Rich Ye Hao, poor and lowly worth mentioning, 100 years later who do not remember who we are, as long as the now happy, healthy, happy and comfortable like.
issue of this letter, I would not call all of your life, I will feel in my lonely heart, breath you, miss your soul, my life Cang consumption, looking for my new life. I think you will be in-line concern you, see you. Finished my truth I will ease, and perhaps really does not want you, no pain.
to say thank you for letting me experience the life, honed in life, thank you for letting me exercise their own and grow their own. I used to do everything for you, in order to say a word to you, my heart to calm, to be comforted. Without you I will not experience all happiness and suffering, without you I would not be who I am today.
Thank you again my love, my love, my dearest people! Thanks for the network!
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